Hello, New Life…

Oh, wow. I haven’t updated in forever. I have reasons, but I don’t think it’s really relevant right now.

Currently, I’m stuck at a local library that closes in two hours. That’s why I’m typing this up… so please excuse any mistakes or whatever. I’m kind of over everything right now, and couldn’t care less about grammar/spelling mistakes. I don’t think there will be any, though, since I’m pretty good with that shit.

Anyway, hey.

I have no idea where I left off, but this is a new chapter in my life. I’ve officially been kicked out of my house! That’s right. Today has been so shitty, and I have nowhere to go. I mean, I have stores, which I might hang out in for a bit until I find something better to do, but I don’t know yet. You guys might be thinking, “Jess, go call your dad and ask to stay with him.” Yeah, well, I would, but I don’t want to. Not because our relationship is terrible, which it kind of is, but because I don’t want anything from anyone. Besides, I don’t even talk to him that much. I have no one, technically, and I haven’t for a while.

I guess you’d have to be in my situation to understand my thinking. I’m all over the place right now, ha!

My mother told me to never come back, so that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to go out and have fun and not think twice about it. I’m going to be my own person, without being told how useless I am. Maybe I’ll disappear forever and throw away my phone. Maybe I’ll drive to New York. Maybe I’ll drive to a small town. The possibilities are endless.

Honestly, I don’t care (or know) what happens now.

I promise to keep you all updated. I know I say that a lot, but I don’t want you guys thinking I’m dead or something stupid like that.

So, until next time…



Well, it’s been a while since the last time I’ve posted, which can mean that’s either a good thing or a bad thing. So here’s your answer: a good thing.

I finally got a car, and most of my trips include going to McDonald’s. In order to fund my “expensive” eating habits, I need to find a job, but I can’t apply for any until I know my schedule for school. So that means I have to go to the college’s campus right near me, which I don’t want to because I have no idea what to ask them about. And then I have to register for classes in order to know my schedule, but the college I applied to said not to yet. It’s all chaotic and confusing right now.

My car’s name is Winchester, and I’d tell you the model of it, but I don’t want someone I know figuring out this is my blog. Sorry! Just know it’s not a truck. There’s no USB input, though, which sucks if my phone’s about to die.

Speaking of the name Winchester, I’ve currently been in love with the show Supernatural. Due to this obsession, I’m planning a summer road trip with Katie. I think I’ve mentioned her in my past posts. She’s going to do the playlists while I plan the rest. I am way too excited for this.

Hope you guys are having great days, weeks, months, and years… If not, watch your favorite show on Netflix (if it’s on there). Or drink. Either or.

Better Days

Lately, my life has become bearable. It has started getting better, and maybe that’s partially because of the mindset I’ve been having. I feel like this past month, I’ve started liking who I am, how I am, and whatnot. I think movies help me with that.

Also, good news! I recently got my license, and passed on my first try. I felt so happy, like I’ve accomplished something I set my mind to a few years ago. I love driving, and cannot wait to get my own car. Blasting 60s and 70s music is what I’ll be doing every time I’m behind the wheel, that’s for sure.

I feel like I’ve missed so much, but I really haven’t. I know it’s been a month since my last post, but I have a good reason. I’ve moved on from feeling sorry for myself. I’m a lot happier. I’ve also been watching Netflix nonstop (hello,  Supernatural!).

One thing that I need to get started on is college. I’ve already applied and sent my transcripts to the local community college, but I haven’t received an acceptance e-mail or anything yet. I still have to register for classes (once I get accepted and figure out which classes I need). It’s a little hectic, and I’ve been procrastinating. Hence, the nonstop Netflixing.

I know this was short and boring, but I’ll update once things get interesting. I’m so boring right now, it’s cray-zee.

Until next time (hopefully soon!),

Jessica xoxoxoxoxoxo

The Unknown

I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m stuck between wanting to do everything and wanting to do nothing. I have no support system, but what else is new? I might start running just to clear my mind. I don’t think I’m confident enough to go to the gym.

I know I haven’t posted in a while, which was a good thing up until this week. I was having a good time, but now I fell back to my old self. I’m not happy. I don’t think I was ever really happy, honestly. I’m sick right now, too, which doesn’t make the situation any better.

Also, I’m planning on looking for an apartment away from my mom. She still insults me. Why would I want to live with someone that insults me 24/7? I have no idea. I have no money, no license (still!), and no car. I’m a pathetic loser that has no life.

Talk soon…

A Short Post from the Library

I’ve been thinking a lot. I’ve been asking myself whether or not I would look good wearing 90’s clothing rather than today’s fashion trends; when I’ll be getting my license; if I’ll pass my written and driving test the first time; and what I’m going to be doing for college.

I might not be able to go to college full-time this upcoming year. That’s what has me mostly bummed. I wish I applied for some scholarships, honestly.

Also, I almost died twice this week by a semi and a mail truck. I pulled in front of the semi, and it blasted its horn. There was heavy traffic. The mail truck’s tire popped right in front of me, so the loud bang was terrifying for about two seconds.

I’m currently surrounded by attractive guys. I wouldn’t do anything with them for certain reasons, but it’s a good thing I’m legal. They’re idiotic assholes, though. It’s a win-lose situation if you think about their looks versus their personality and intelligence.

There’s still no internet, which is why I’m at the library. I’ve been watching Beverly Hills, 90210 on Hulu, and my type is literally Brandon Walsh. I think I’m in love with him, and I’m only on episode four.

Until next time…